Lying here
All alone
Missing you.
Struggling to deal
With such a change.
You're not here
To keep me warm.
No sound of you breathing.
Your heart beat missing.
The soft touch
Of your skin
Against mine
Is not here.
Reaching out for you.
But you're nowhere
In sight.
Fighting for
That feeling
Of you beside me.
Longing for
Your lips
To touch mine.
Wanting you.
Needing you.
Missing you.
Without you
Just isn't reasonable.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
Crying
No life in me.
I fall.
Nothing left in this world for me.
The only thing keeping me alive
And you have failed me.
The strength that we used to have
Has been lost and cannot be found.
I feel as though
A single tear
Glistening down her cheek.
I slowly descend
To the cold hard earth.
My world comes crashing to a stop.
I am lifeless.
I fall.
Nothing left in this world for me.
The only thing keeping me alive
And you have failed me.
The strength that we used to have
Has been lost and cannot be found.
I feel as though
A single tear
Glistening down her cheek.
I slowly descend
To the cold hard earth.
My world comes crashing to a stop.
I am lifeless.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Darkness
In the night,
the world can feel so dull.
When all that surrounds you is black.
You try and find a ray of light,
but it won't come out enough.
The sunless night,
can make you feel so alone.
The night noises frighten you.
The thunder and lightening,
is enough to give you the chills.
But when you are here with me,
I yet to feel any of this.
With your fingers entwined in mine,
I know I can rest in peace.
With your arms wrapped around me,
I feel the rays of light.
The thunder and lightening excite me,
when your beside me.
The room feels full of light,
even in the pitch-dark.
In the moment of excitement,
your lips touch mine,
and I can feel the electricity
running through my body.
the world can feel so dull.
When all that surrounds you is black.
You try and find a ray of light,
but it won't come out enough.
The sunless night,
can make you feel so alone.
The night noises frighten you.
The thunder and lightening,
is enough to give you the chills.
But when you are here with me,
I yet to feel any of this.
With your fingers entwined in mine,
I know I can rest in peace.
With your arms wrapped around me,
I feel the rays of light.
The thunder and lightening excite me,
when your beside me.
The room feels full of light,
even in the pitch-dark.
In the moment of excitement,
your lips touch mine,
and I can feel the electricity
running through my body.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
What Makes The World Go 'Round
Love is such a wild and crazy thing. Without it, the world would not revolve. It's a psychotic feeling to be in love. Every moment with the person you love, you treasure. Every word they speak, you remember. Every second apart, you miss them. Their heart beat, becomes your favorite song. Their voice becomes the most relaxing sound in the world. Their kiss becomes your every desire. You begin to cherish every moment you get to hold them. You see the world in a completely new way. It's like you were blind-folded before you were with this person. Love is such an unknown feeling, many people are scared to believe that they are in love. In the end, nothing becomes a better feeling, than believing you are in love. Knowing what love is, is simply impossible. Everybody has their own idea of love. If everyone could forget about war, and just love each other, the world would be a much better place. Love is what every girl dreams of, and what every guy works for. With enough effort from one boy and one girl, they can create love. If people could just let another in, and trust someone, the world would be filled with love and laughter. Love is scary, and hard. But what is life without a little suspense? What is life without some work? What is life without knowing ones boundaries? Life is full of love everyday. Open your eyes, and let someone love you back.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Moving on
You were never there when I really needed you.
You were never there when I wanted you the most.
You weren't there when the world came crashing down on me.
All I wanted, was a call.
Just to know you were there.
Where were you?
Not here.
Not with me.
Now this feeling is gone.
No longer needed.
No longer desired.
You made my heart ache irrationally.
And now, I'll be the one to ignore.
I'll be the one to forget.
I'm moving on to better.
No more heart ache here.
You were never there when I wanted you the most.
You weren't there when the world came crashing down on me.
All I wanted, was a call.
Just to know you were there.
Where were you?
Not here.
Not with me.
Now this feeling is gone.
No longer needed.
No longer desired.
You made my heart ache irrationally.
And now, I'll be the one to ignore.
I'll be the one to forget.
I'm moving on to better.
No more heart ache here.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Forever.
I will promise you to always be here. Always. No matter what the situation. Whenever you turn around, I'll be right there for you. I promise to never, be the one to disappear. I will always be right by your side. When you need a shoulder to cry on. Someone to take your anger out on. When you need a hug. When I hear you call, I'll never keep you waiting. I'll be there in a heart beat. Til the day my life is through, I promise you... I'll be right here. Every day. Every night.
Insecurities.
I love you. The three most powerful words in the world for a girl. To hear them, from the right one, is a dream come true. But then, makes it all more complicated. Am I good enough? Pretty enough? Smart enough? Cute? Funny? Every thought possible runs through our mind like a song on the radio. Every girl dreams of the first time he'll say it to her. And how she'll react. But in the actual moment of it happening, our minds go blank. And all that fills us is a smile. The glisten in his eyes when he says it. His adorable smile. And the passion in the moment. The 3 most important words slip out of our lips, and travel back to him. The most magical moment in the entire world, when two people fall in love. It's crazy how a moment so perfect, can make a girl feel so overwhelmed. Am I truly good enough for you? But, then you show me a whole new world. You show me my true beauty, inside and out. You show me how perfect we are together. You have completely knocked away those old worries. Thank you. For what you may ask? For showing me that none of those questions I constantly asked myself ever mattered. For loving me.
Snow
Beautiful.
Chaotic.
Fluffy.
Cold.
Magical.
Misunderstood.
Unforgettable.
Erratic.
Elegant.
Indecorous.
Radiant.
Chaotic.
Fluffy.
Cold.
Magical.
Misunderstood.
Unforgettable.
Erratic.
Elegant.
Indecorous.
Radiant.
I want...
I want to be everything you want.
I want to be everything you need.
I want to be the one you hold in your arms every night.
I want to be the one you wake up next to every morning.
I want to be the one you share your deepest and darkest secrets with.
I want to be the one you fight the world with.
I want to be the one your not afraid to cry for.
I want to be the one you share your every thought with.
I want to be the one who brings the smile to your face.
I want to be the one you wait for.
I want to be the one you take chances with.
I want to be everything you want, need, desire, crave and love
I want to be everything you need.
I want to be the one you hold in your arms every night.
I want to be the one you wake up next to every morning.
I want to be the one you share your deepest and darkest secrets with.
I want to be the one you fight the world with.
I want to be the one your not afraid to cry for.
I want to be the one you share your every thought with.
I want to be the one who brings the smile to your face.
I want to be the one you wait for.
I want to be the one you take chances with.
I want to be everything you want, need, desire, crave and love
Unknown Feeling
The barrier between who I am,
and who I could be.
Who I want to be is just so far out of reach.
Feels like every time I even get close,
it's raised another 50 feet.
And I have to work harder and harder
to reach what I want.
Scared.
Nervous.
Fighting.
This unknown feeling.
Slowly, picking my road to get through the barrier.
Winding road it shall be.
But I'll get passed it.
and who I could be.
Who I want to be is just so far out of reach.
Feels like every time I even get close,
it's raised another 50 feet.
And I have to work harder and harder
to reach what I want.
Scared.
Nervous.
Fighting.
This unknown feeling.
Slowly, picking my road to get through the barrier.
Winding road it shall be.
But I'll get passed it.
Fire
Fighting through the fire.
Pushing through with all my strength.
Finding all the will I can to keep going.
Using all my power, to keep fighting.
Start losing hope,
And seeing you, brings it all back.
Fighting for who I am, and who I want to be.
How the fire burns.
How the fire leaves scars.
How my mind is so troubled.
But I know it's worth the fight.
Worth the pain.
Worth every scar.
Because then,
I will be who I want to be.
And nobody else.
I will be on top of my own world.
And that's all that matters.
Now.
Pushing through with all my strength.
Finding all the will I can to keep going.
Using all my power, to keep fighting.
Start losing hope,
And seeing you, brings it all back.
Fighting for who I am, and who I want to be.
How the fire burns.
How the fire leaves scars.
How my mind is so troubled.
But I know it's worth the fight.
Worth the pain.
Worth every scar.
Because then,
I will be who I want to be.
And nobody else.
I will be on top of my own world.
And that's all that matters.
Now.
One Day
Maybe one day it will happen.
Maybe one day you'll realize what you lost.
When that day comes,
It's gonna be too late.
You had your chances.
There aren't anymore left for you.
Maybe, When that day comes and you want me again,
I will just stand back.
No more will I give in.
I fell for your games and tricks far too long ago.
Now I leave that behind.
I leave all the pain and misery behind.
Moving on.
Reaching out for better.
Leaving you and your problems behind.
Doing this for me.
Nobody can stop me.
Maybe one day you'll realize what you lost.
When that day comes,
It's gonna be too late.
You had your chances.
There aren't anymore left for you.
Maybe, When that day comes and you want me again,
I will just stand back.
No more will I give in.
I fell for your games and tricks far too long ago.
Now I leave that behind.
I leave all the pain and misery behind.
Moving on.
Reaching out for better.
Leaving you and your problems behind.
Doing this for me.
Nobody can stop me.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Open Up
You have your doubts, about yourself.
And who you are.
Someday you'll realize how amazing you are.
You say you're scared for what is happening,
but that's a part of life.
If in your lifetime,
you do not get scared,
you aren't living.
Life has its ups and downs.
It's hard to get through it all.
But you have to keep pushing through.
Keep your head high.
The sea may be stormy right now,
but in time, it will be calm again.
Be strong, and keep holding on
to what motivates you.
Keep smiling.
You have an amazing heart,
so let people see that.
Don't hide something so radiant.
Open yourself up into this crazy world we live in
and let everybody see you for who you are.
Don't be scared of what the world is giving you.
And who you are.
Someday you'll realize how amazing you are.
You say you're scared for what is happening,
but that's a part of life.
If in your lifetime,
you do not get scared,
you aren't living.
Life has its ups and downs.
It's hard to get through it all.
But you have to keep pushing through.
Keep your head high.
The sea may be stormy right now,
but in time, it will be calm again.
Be strong, and keep holding on
to what motivates you.
Keep smiling.
You have an amazing heart,
so let people see that.
Don't hide something so radiant.
Open yourself up into this crazy world we live in
and let everybody see you for who you are.
Don't be scared of what the world is giving you.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Fear...By Marianne Williamson
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not out darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we subconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
The Journey
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting their bad advice.
Though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!" each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations
though their melancholy was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice,
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do.
Determined to save
the only life you could save.
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting their bad advice.
Though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!" each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations
though their melancholy was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice,
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do.
Determined to save
the only life you could save.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Bryan Adams - Inside Out
The biggest lie you ever told.
Your deepest fear 'bout growin' old.
The longest night you ever spent.
The angriest letter you never sent.
The boy you swore you'd never leave, the one you kissed on new years eve.
The sweetest dream you had last night.
Your darkest hour, your hardest fight .
I wanna know you like I know myself
I'm waitin' for you there ain't no one else
Talk to me baby scream and shout
I want to know you inside out
I wanna dig down deep - I wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream and shout - I wanna know you inside out
I wanna take my time - I wanna know your mind
Ya know there ain't no doubt - I wanna know you inside out
The saddest song you ever heard - the most you said with
just one word.
The loneliest prayer you ever prayed - the truest vow you
ever made.
What makes you laugh, what makes you cry.
What makes you mad, what gets you by.
Your highest height, your lowest low - these things I want to
know
I wanna know you - like I know myself
I'm waitin' for you - there ain't no one else
Talk to me baby - scream and shout
I want to know you inside out
I wanna dig down deep - I wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream and shout - I wanna know you inside out
I wanna take my time - I wanna know your mind
Ya know there ain't no doubt - I wanna know you inside out
I wanna know your soul - I wanna lose control
C'mon n' let it out - I wanna know you inside out
Ya gotta dig down deep - I wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream and shout - I wanna know you inside out
tell me everything...
Your deepest fear 'bout growin' old.
The longest night you ever spent.
The angriest letter you never sent.
The boy you swore you'd never leave, the one you kissed on new years eve.
The sweetest dream you had last night.
Your darkest hour, your hardest fight .
I wanna know you like I know myself
I'm waitin' for you there ain't no one else
Talk to me baby scream and shout
I want to know you inside out
I wanna dig down deep - I wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream and shout - I wanna know you inside out
I wanna take my time - I wanna know your mind
Ya know there ain't no doubt - I wanna know you inside out
The saddest song you ever heard - the most you said with
just one word.
The loneliest prayer you ever prayed - the truest vow you
ever made.
What makes you laugh, what makes you cry.
What makes you mad, what gets you by.
Your highest height, your lowest low - these things I want to
know
I wanna know you - like I know myself
I'm waitin' for you - there ain't no one else
Talk to me baby - scream and shout
I want to know you inside out
I wanna dig down deep - I wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream and shout - I wanna know you inside out
I wanna take my time - I wanna know your mind
Ya know there ain't no doubt - I wanna know you inside out
I wanna know your soul - I wanna lose control
C'mon n' let it out - I wanna know you inside out
Ya gotta dig down deep - I wanna lose some sleep
I wanna scream and shout - I wanna know you inside out
tell me everything...
It's amazing how I feel when I'm around you,
How my heart pounds when you come into a room.
I look at you and think: My God! How lovely!
And everything I am bursts into bloom.
I feel as though you must, you must be mine,
Not as a possession but a goal,
Something almost unimaginable:
The free devotion of another soul.
How my heart pounds when you come into a room.
I look at you and think: My God! How lovely!
And everything I am bursts into bloom.
I feel as though you must, you must be mine,
Not as a possession but a goal,
Something almost unimaginable:
The free devotion of another soul.
Switchfoot - Dare You To Move
Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before
Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened beforeMusic
The rhythm. The beats. The bass. The lyrics. The true meaning. Without music, my life would not be complete. Music is a factor to happiness. When sadness comes into life, you turn to music. It cheers you up, and gives you hope again. When happiness surrounds you, music only boosts you up higher. Thy rhythm gets you intrigued. The beats get you moving. The bass completes the equation. The lyrics give you reason to sing. And the meaning is the biggest part of it all.. it gives you the hope to find happiness, or more reasons to be happy.
Lady Antebellum - Need You Now
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now
Ooo, baby, I need you now
Reachin' for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now
Ooo, baby, I need you now
Happiness is...
Happiness is finding who you are.
Happiness is finding a new friend.
Happiness is getting your first pet.
Happiness is family.
Happiness is fun.
Happiness is freedom.
Happiness is playfulness.
Happiness is being proud of who you have become.
Happiness is laughing for no reason.
Happiness is falling in love.
Happiness is developing new relationships.
Happiness is helping others, without asking for anything in return.
Happiness is caring for others.
Happiness is accomplishing something for yourself, not anybody else.
Happiness is making a change for the better.
Happiness is putting other people needs above your own.
Happiness is self respect.
Happiness is what makes the world go 'round.
Happiness is getting your first pet.
Happiness is family.
Happiness is fun.
Happiness is freedom.
Happiness is playfulness.
Happiness is being proud of who you have become.
Happiness is laughing for no reason.
Happiness is falling in love.
Happiness is developing new relationships.
Happiness is helping others, without asking for anything in return.
Happiness is caring for others.
Happiness is accomplishing something for yourself, not anybody else.
Happiness is making a change for the better.
Happiness is putting other people needs above your own.
Happiness is self respect.
Happiness is what makes the world go 'round.
First love
You slowly make your way over to me, and my breath is gone. Lost, and I can't find it. Our eyes meet, and my whole body just wants to scream. My heart races and pounds against my chest. You smile back that sweet innocent smile of yours, and I can't hold mine back. As you get closer to me, I take a step towards you. As we meet, you put your arms out, wrap them around my waist, and lift me up into the air. I've never felt so excited in my life. You are everything I've ever wanted, and more. You are my dream, that I thought was never possible. As you pull me closer to you, my eyes are locked in yours, and it feels like I'll never be able to look away. The most thrilling feeling in the world. You throw me a curve ball, and kiss me. My entire body has been taken over by these feelings that you give me. My entire body feels so light, and my thoughts get blurry. As you put my back on the ground, my knees get shaky, and I feel like I can't stand. My knees feel so weak, and my mind doesn't even know what to think. It's all over the place, thinking of your smile, your voice, your eyes, your kiss, your touch. You pull me in and hug me, so tightly that I never want to let go of you. And just before you pull away, you whisper in my ear "Forever and always." You are all I need now, and everything I want. Every minute with you I will cherish. Every second spent apart, will be ever so long, and dreadful. But baby, I can do it, because missing you is worth the wait.
My attempt at my first song.
Laying here out under the stars
Wondering why I'm here alone.
Trying to forget the pain you caused me
But baby I gotta say, nothings the same without you.
The sky is so different.
the stars just aren't the same.
I miss you
And every night I look up at the night sky
and wish you a good night.
But nobody knows it but me.
What happened to forever and always?
You promised me forever...
and now I'm here all alone,
clutching the memories of
you and me
and what used to be.
While your out with
another girl,
keeping her warm.
I miss you.
Baby,
keep your distance.
Keep your baggy pants
Keep your memories.
They are useless to me.
Stay away from me.
Baby please,
I can't bare the pain anymore.
Its in the past let it be.
Even though I miss you
You were my everything,
and now she's your everything.
So baby spare me the agony, and
just stay away.
I miss you.
Trying to forget the pain you caused me
But baby I gotta say, nothings the same without you.
The sky is so different.
the stars just aren't the same.
I miss you
And every night I look up at the night sky
and wish you a good night.
But nobody knows it but me.
What happened to forever and always?
You promised me forever...
and now I'm here all alone,
clutching the memories of
you and me
and what used to be.
While your out with
another girl,
keeping her warm.
I miss you.
Baby,
keep your distance.
Keep your baggy pants
Keep your memories.
They are useless to me.
Stay away from me.
Baby please,
I can't bare the pain anymore.
Its in the past let it be.
Even though I miss you
You were my everything,
and now she's your everything.
So baby spare me the agony, and
just stay away.
I miss you.
Erased
I remember like it was yesterday I was falling asleep in your arms. And waking up beside you. Oh how lucky I felt to have you in my life. But baby I was wrong. You threw it away like yesterdays paper. You turned your back on me. The feeling I had when I watched you walk away is beyond words describable. You threw it all away. You threw away the happiness. You tried to wind me back in and believe your lies again. But it ain't happening. Not this time. It has been erased forever.
Sparks Flying
The color of your eyes is ice blue and mesmerizing. Your smile so sweet and innocent. Your touch sends electricity throughout my body and gets my heart racing. The sparks that fly when our lips connect is like no other feeling known. When our hands are entangled together, I realize its just you and me baby. Nobody to stop us, nothing to come between us, and we won't let it happen. Baby just let this moment last forever. I proceed to get lost in your eyes, and as I begin to express how you make me feel, your hand covers my mouth and you whisper ever so softly "Just let us have this moment." And it happens. You have my heart. It's yours and only yours. Don't throw it away. It's you and me, baby, against the world.
Friendship
Lost and confused. With everything bottled up. Walls surrounding our feelings and our hearts. Meet once, shy, but laughter finds its way in. Second time, more laughter and drop a few bricks. Days pass, more bricks come tumbling down. Both nervous for their bricks have never dropped this fast. But somewhere deep inside them, they let it happen. Amazing to finally be able to let those walls down for another. To let another climb through the walls, is an unfamiliar feeling. Yet neither holds back. Slowly, the walls become smaller and smaller, and both revealed. Opening up to another has never come so easily, no more pre cautions to worry about. Trust has found its way in.
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